At Home - Days 10 & 11 (Laziness temporarily set in)

FAT STATS

Heaviest weight (Feb 2011): 259 lbs

Starting weight at Biggest Loser Resort (Nov 2011): 217 lbs

Current weight on Day 11: 188.5 (phew!)

FUEL:

Day 10: Approx 1400 calories

  

• Breakfast: Oatmeal. Banana
• Snack: Apple
• Lunch: Whole wheat wrap. Grilled chicken. Soy cheese, lettuce, salsa.
• Snack: 1/8 cup raw cashews. 1/8 cup organic, unsweetened banana chips (I was at approx. 710 calories at this point)
• Dinner: 15 Mussels steamed in garlic, wine and butter. 2 slices of garlic bread. <See below for details>

Day 11: Approximately 1250 Calories

• Breakfast: Whole wheat wrap. Soy cheese. 4 egg whites
• Snack: Kind Almond Coconut Bar
• Lunch: Whole wheat wrap. Grilled chicken. Soy cheese, lettuce, salsa.
• Snack: 3 oz grilled chicken
• Dinner: Whole wheat wrap. Grilled chicken. Soy cheese, lettuce, salsa. (I really need to eat the grilled chicken and whole wheat wraps because they're ready to expire)

THE BURN:
Unknown

I think I needed a break. Let's just say that I took a two day rest period. The only activity I engaged in was sleeping, a little dancing at a club and walking around the neighborhood... not much at all.

SELF ASSESSMENT:

• Personal score: C- (I'm trying not to be too hard on myself, so I gave myself a passing grade)

MY DAY(s):

Day 10:

Wednesdays have been historically difficult for me, even while I was at BLR. I'm not quite sure why, but I always lose steam  mid-week.

So, about that dinner on Day 10, which was obviously NOT in line with the 90% part of the program... Here is a note and explanation (not an excuse): The garlic bread was a surprise. It came as part of my mussels appetizer. I knew full well what I was getting into with the butter, wine and garlic steamed mussels, but that bread was placed in front of me and the food devil appeared on  my shoulder. He bitch-slapped the hell out of the food angel. The garlic and butter smelled soooo good, I couldn't leave it alone. At first, I told myself, "Just a bite" and I nibbled at a corner. At that point, I should have poured water on the bread or thrown it across the room, because that was the last exhibit of any kind of control that I would display for the next several minutes. Enter the emotional triggers, stage left and right:

Smitten Lindsey, Me, and the fabulous Michelle

My friends, flanking me on either side, began talking about how great their dating lives were going, how happy they were, and how they both met these wonderful guys! As my eyes darted to each of them, left and right, I was sincerely happy for both of them - they each deserve NOTHING BUT THE BEST, but I also felt a twinge of envy set in. I ignored it...  instead, I celebrated the occasion with some emotion-stifling garlic bread! I was happy for them, but my own heart was slowly sinking and bread was there to save it like a life preserver ring. I didn't realize I was in full on bread annihilation mode until the second slice was almost completely gone: I made record time stuffing that first slice in my mouth and two-fisting with the second slice...Ummm...Yah, that was part of my10%, for sure.

Thank goodness a bread basket filled with yummy, warm, aromatic sourdough and whipped butter was across the table and out of my reach. Don't get me wrong, I was eye-balling the heck out of that basket, but I was too embarrassed to reach for it after my elegant garlic bread etiquette display. When I asked that the basket be taken away with what was left of my mussels, the waitress tried to tell me that I should save the mussel broth (butter, garlic and wine) for the bread in the basket. Poor thing probably saw my head flip around like in The Exorcist when she wouldn't relent. Sorry, Miss Waitress Lady. No means no.

As I mentioned above, there wasn't much activity on this day. I went out to dinner with some girlfriends, then we were invited to a VIP booth at a local club, so a few of us went dancing and people-watching.

Me, Michelle, and Crystal

Later, we all met up with my trainer, who was at the pub next door to the dance club, so I felt much less guilty about not working out that day! You can't say I didn't meet up with my trainer! Ha!

Day 11:

I should have worked out yesterday because if I considered THAT activity to be nothing, then today I was a coma patient. Although I parted ways with my friends and the club at 11pm, I only got about two hours of sleep last night. I woke up and put on my gym clothes at 7:30am. I turned on my computer to boot up for work... and I fell asleep at my keyboard! Not good! I missed the gym and worked between tiny naps all day. Day 11 was pretty much ruined exercise-wise, unless I go now. But, I won't. I canceled my appointment at 6pm and told my trainer I needed one more rest day. He didn't fight me on it... hmmmm...

Perhaps from the lack of sleep, I found myself to be in a real down mood today. I rarely got up off of the couch, except for meals, etc. However, I did something I wouldn't normally do; I reached out to a friend for support. Thank goodness for people like Courtney who care enough to try to help lift my spirits. Before texting with her, I was seriously contemplating grabbing a pint of Ben & Jerry's from the hotel lobby. But, I texted her instead and she immediately provided sage advice, uplifting comments, empathy, and a contagious positive attitude! She helped me to stay on track with my nutrition today and I think the scale is finally calming down for me. I just hope that the few pounds I re-lost since day before yesterday are not from muscle-loss.

Courtney helping me with my nutrition at Subway while at BLR :-)

Today and yesterday are behind me. Tonight, my goal is to get to sleep at a decent hour. Tomorrow, my goal is to wake up around 5am and go straight to the gym. After that, I've scheduled a yoga class with my good friend, Marisa. I'm really looking forward to that! One of the morsels of advice given to me by Courtney was to find a partner to do any kind of exercise with that I can. So, instead of finding ONE person to work out with, I'm just asking everybody I know now! This just may work! So far, I have 3 hiking partners, 2 yoga partners, a 5K partner, 2 half-marathon partners and 4 gym partners! The BLR community, teambeachbody.com, and other fitness organizations always have groups that are looking for others to join and to do things together. I plan to take better advantage of this!

Finally, a bit of grammatically horrid inspiration, but I still like it :-)

See you on the fit side!
-Heather